Arra Czarina.19. INC. Philippines.
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One hell of a drama queen I’ll forever be, maybe.
It’s settled, then.
Farewell, old friend.
Ipu-push ko na talagang panoorin ‘to. Waaaaa :”>
Dahil bored ako, kinausap ko na lang si Simsimi. Ayun. hindi naman ako nabigo :D
There’s a fine line between admiration to any random people and extreme affection you have for a specific person. The first one causes nothing extraordinary apart from the usual reactions such as, “Ahwwww. :3” over the trivial things s/he must’ve done or said.
The second one can get creepier than the average creepy laymen can ever assume.
And that’s our case when it comes to these people.
I mean, when it comes to you.
I’ve always known at the back of my mind that no matter how tough you intend to look like and no matter how much of a douchebag you wish to pull off (or be, for that matter, you can never deny the sadness evident in every quick wiping of your eyes.
I know that things have gone a little more complicated and I, together with them,have ran farther away from you and the family you have after the incident which brought us to where we all are now.
An no, I am not saying that I—we—have been connected to you or related of some sort, so quit the ugly twitch of the nose because of disgust over the stalker-ish power I have.
For one moment, if ever you’ll find yourself lost in here, I wish you’ll see me, or us, in a different light. One that’s apart, far off apart that is, from the way you have been used to. I know it sounds pretty desperate but I just know deep within my core that we can be better than this.
Even more, I just wish you’ll never see us as little girls who just came to play anymore. Dumbass, how can you play in there? It’s a wedding, asshead.
Pinulong kami ng Destinado naming sa ‘di ko malamang dahilan eh sobrang mahal na mahal ko (redundant ata ‘yun ah).
Tungkol sa pagdaragdag pa din ng mga manunungkulan bilang mang-aawit. Eh kasi kailangan na talaga ng lokal lalo’t magkakaron na ng dalwang extension. Kapag ganyan na nga ang napag-uusapan, nasasabi ko tuloy sa sarili ko: Pasulong na talaga ang Iglesia.
Ang lagay eh, papaiwan pa ba ‘ko?
Natuwa lang ako kanina.. er, rather, kagabi. Dahil muling nabanggit ang aral sa Biblia na sa pagkakatanda ko eh siyang nagtulak sa akin para tanggapin na ang tungkuling ‘to na hanggang ngayon eh mahigpit ko pa ring hawak sa mga kamay ko.
Sa gitna kasi ng pag-iisip ukol sa pagiging-dapat ko pa din bilang mang-aawit Niya, binigyan na naman Niya ako ng paalala.
Ewan ko ba naman pero nitong huli kasi eh naiinis ako sa sarili ko. Pakiramdam ko kasi talaga minsan, panira lang ako sa Koro. Tipong hindi naman kasi talaga kagandahan ang boses ko tapos nagagatungan pa ‘yung katotohanang ‘yon ng mga nangyari sa buhay ko nitong nakaraang taon.
Wala na yatang mas sasakit pa para sa isang mang-aawit sa pagkaalam na sa tinig pa lang, hindi ka na naging-dapat sa harapan Niya.Eh kaya ka nga mang-aawit eh. Aawit ka.
Paano na lang kung hindi ka na sapat?
Kaya nga natuwa ako kagabi. Nung narinig ko na naman ‘yung sitas tungkol sa pagbibigay Niya ng kaloob sa loob ng Iglesia ayon sa nababatid Niyang kakayahang ibinigay Niya sa mga hinirang Niya.
Kaya kapag nanghihina ka at naiisip mong maaaring hindi ka na nababagay sa tungkuling tinanggap mo, isipin mo lang, Kapatid, na inilagay ka Niya d’yan dahil alam Niyang kakayanin mo. At dahil alam Niyang bagay ka d’yan.
Sa tulong at gabay Niya, anomang hadlang, mapapanaigan mo.
Eeh. Ayun. :”>
Idk. I just feel like missing this one.
I clutched my chest and found a hole in the middle of it.
I stared at the mirror, dumbfounded, thinking that I was just lost inside an ugly dream and that any minute now, I’d wake up and find my chest normal again.
But hours ticked by and I still was worriedly looking back at the same reflection I saw before.
Then it hit me like hell.
I am heartless, all right.
The horrible truth have been a trivial one since the dawn of the seemingly worst lesson I have learned in life so far—never trust anyone, they’re all the same.
And no, I am not pertaining to a specific group of people. Nor am I saying that I hate anyone I’m with right now. To be totally honest, even, the exact set of people I have now in my life is the best I have had in years.
But the emptiness and the sweet, sweet longing to feel again would never go away.
For the first time since the nineteenth of December, you touched the remaining emotion-able crap in my heart. I gotta congratulate you for that.
To tell you the truth, those two posts you had in that corner of the cyber space made me cry.
And even though I know you don’t need it, most especially that this is going to come from me, I gotta say that you will be alright and things will work out soon.
I hate you far too greater than you could ever imagine but life goes on, despite the usual bitterness creeping in.
I just know tat one day soon, things will change for the better for all of us. And that may mean that it will all boil down to the original wish of being closer to you.
